Happy Christmas

Since our move some time back, I've been using a pen and paper. I can't complain we have ball point pens or pens with a good grip. Our paper is clear and crisp, with blue lines. I try to mix it up and use plain white paper, sometimes computer paper. (To feel more modern) :)
A step above leafs and ink dipped feathers. My hands are the keys and the paper my screen. My brain is my Internet helped by the knowledge I pull off my bookshelf.

I thumb through my books, I see my quote books, and novels. Pondering which one to read, then I spot Charles Dickens. Browsing through its pages, I recall how his work was genuine. How he described the times with great detail mixed with struggles of mankind. In his writing I find truth with a twist of fiction. The time period he wrote about is very reminiscent of our present.

Think about our global economy, and the harshness of winter. The division of classes, and the struggle to survive the chaos. The journey to stay true to ourselves, and find love in this seemingly heartless world. I see society's hands reaching for coins, while the Wall Street Big wigs carry their wealth with heavy chains. The Super Rich don't realize that the weight from greed will pull us all down.

Tiny Tim walks with a limp, while the greedy CEO's pockets bulge like "The Goodyear Blimp"

This is the Tale of countless cities. Where is the Love?
I can see the Christmas Ghost of Past, and the Christmas Ghost of Present standing. But where is the Ghost of Christmas Future? Hell, where is our children's future heading?

I'm mixed with emotion every Christmas, but this one is a Sleigh ride in a blizzard. A sleigh ride without horses, a driver, or reins. Our country is heading home for the holidays with Our Nuts roasting on an open fire. At least for the people who can pay the bills for their cash devouring house.

I'm not trying to be clever or coy! I'm not trying to depress anyone, merely letting my thoughts and prayers bleed onto paper. No specific point or order, I'm just calling it how I see it.

I can remember a time when a gift was from the heart. Not just from a store, or a plant in China. A time when we expressed feelings to our loved ones, from our lips arms, and finger tips. Not from a mass produced greeting card, fill up with words from a starving writer. The words were created from our own mind and heart. Plus some of those cards are just not meant for anybody I know. Too little are to much! I stick with blank inside or write something myself.

Don't think I'm Christmas harping, I'm no angel myself. I too politely plow through the so called courteous people.

After all tis the season! Ha Ha

Trust me I'm a very caring and positive person. I try not to let others bring me down to their selfish and rude level. Has anybody noticed how discourteous some people can be be this time of the year? Is it just me that can see that during the holidays people can be hateful? I'm trying to stay focused on the joy and the real reasons for the Holiday.

I love Mankind, Candy Canes, and Hot Cocoa. Christmas tunes, A decorated tree, and Mistletoe. :) The whole ball of snow!

I love celebrating with warmth and love. That includes Hannukah, Kwanza, and Christmas! (All Holidays) I may not be black and I might be a Jew, but I love Christmas! I love it for all the good that is shaken out of the pockets of Scrooges. The Holidays reveal the true misers, stinges, and stooges.

It shines the truth of so-called Religious folks, and allows us all to see more clearly. Our wants and needs, or what really matters in life.

I wish I had all the fortunes of the Wall Street type Scrooges, so I could give it all away! I'd kiss the worlds ouchies, ans say its going to be OK. Open a box of band Aids, and gently place it on the wounds of Earth's children. Even the misers, but I would hope that next time they would buy the biggest birds in town. Then knock on the doors of the "Working man" and give their families a real feast. Deliver wheel barrels of coal with a genuine goal of compassion!

Once again I ramble with my words, but with a message of hope and good intention. I do apologize if I came off as Anti Christmas, or an unrealistic dreamer. Please know that I'm thankful for the many things, and for the love I receive in my life. I just want to give the world a Holiday Hug, with a dash of loving understanding. May this Holiday be what your soul needs and the coming year be kind to your hearts.

I must get back to the family gathering, I' ll have a couple more post soon. Trust me one of them will be more uplifting.

Merry Christmas to All and all a good night!

Peace&Love
Wes& Family

Happy Birthday Mom

Mom:

Thank you for everything you have done for me in this life. I know you tried the best you could in this unpredictable world! I wish to say that I love you and hope your day is well! Try to stay warm and dry in Ontario, and enjoy your wonderful day with your loving husband Reijo.

If anyone reads this entry, please wish my Mom a happy 50Th Birthday today! :)

Thank you All,

Wes

Hot Dog

I don't have much time, I feel a little like the Rabbit in "Alice In Wonderland" these days. Life has been going well for us, but it could always be better! I watched "It's A Wonderful Life" a little while back, and always feel blessed to be alive! What a story! I still can't believe that movie was a flop in it's day. It is my (All Time) favorite movie, then "The Grapes of Wrath".

I love stories that convey the way life is sometimes. If we could all be like the leads in these films, the world would be the place. In many ways we all have the heart of George bailey, and the will to make a difference. It just sometimes we don't realize our impact on the lives of others.

I know my life has not turned out the way I envisioned it to. But I know I'm on my path, and that just around the corner is my "Bedford Falls".

I can see that the way the country is going we will all wish for a "Savings and Loan"

It is a real shame that I can't do my impressions of this film, I can do almost everybody. I can quote every part. I do tear up at the end, like many others do! I'm not afraid to admit this. If only the majority of the world would do so.

I can't help but think of all the people in need of help in this "Mr. Potter" world. I wish every one this season could help their angel get their wings. My heart goes out to humanity this Holiday season. (Just like every day!)

I have read other entries that pulled my heart strings for the Holidays and for my family. I think of my past and all the Christmas's. I can only laugh and smile at the memories. I can only feel a sense of happiness, I recall every person. Every person who has now passed and those who are here now. Even the worst Christmas joins the best ones in harmony, as we sing our songs.

I remember the sleigh rides at my Great Uncle Jim's house and the long walks in winter with my Brother Don. We felt no cold on the toes as we journeyed in our 100 acre woods for hours. We skated on the family ponds till we could no longer feel our butts. I can remember the long talks with my family as we devoured our meals. I could go on forever about the joys of the my past, but must stop myself before I really ramble.

I'm sure you all have a wonderful memory you could share with me, so feel free!

I just wanted to deliver a message of appreciation and love! I sincerely wish you all an Amazing Holiday, whatever you have planned this year. I want to relay a message of hope and warm thoughts for your upcoming year.

Please be safe with the arrival of Winter and the fruits of its bountiful cold and snow!

Peace&Love
Wes& Family

Hey Now

Everything has been going OK this last week. I have been enjoying my family every chance I get, but MJ is still sick. Lisa and I have a touch of it as well, but the show must go on! We received about an inch of snow last night. MJ was very pleased to see the earth lightly covered with white delight. I bundled her up warm and tight, to allow her to dance in the snow for a second or two by the door. The littlest thing pleases a sweet child, we as a adults look at frosty weather as a chore. A chore that includes scrapers and shovels, but deep inside my inner child screams for snow ice cream and a speedy sled. I will make a snowman with MJ and Lisa, when we get enough snow. I got up early and captured some beautiful snow and ice covered window shots. We watched Curious George together while we ate cereal on this glorious morning.



A couple nights ago I put in a double record f Ray Charles for MJ and I to listen to while we colored and doodled drawings. She loves blues and Jazz like me, so we boogied down to the Genius! It will be a memory that will last for eternity, our smiles and laughs accompanied our silly dance moves. After we were done MJ got tired, but it took quite some time to get her to sleep. The wind banged the windows and howled like the scene in the film "The Grapes of Wrath". When he returns home to discover that the farm was gone, and talked with Casey. Any hoo, you would have to know the the film, so I will say it was a constant eerie wind. Needless to say after her fear subsided and her eyes closed, she fell softly a sleep in her warm bed.



I'm just about caught up with most of the little things in my life right now. Life has been pretty good for me and my family. I can't complain too much, for I know other people have it worse than we do. The world we share together and the times we as a society live in are tough right now. We should count our blessings and enjoy every moment for what it is. No matter what tomorrow brings we should keep hope alive for all who need help this holiday season. We should give what little we can to others everyday and keep the promise of a kindness to our fellow man.



If we could all be like "George Bailey" for there are too many "Mr. Potters" in this cold world.



I hope that life is going well for you all! I wish everyone a wonderful holiday season and a great week! :)

Peace&Love
Wes, Lisa, and Malayna Jane

Busy With A Capital B

I'm still here! Please bare with me, I'm extremely busy with the finalization of the move. I can't get computer service in the new place for days. I will be back to reading your journals and writing entries soon. MJ has been really sick with a cold, and I have been helping my Dad out around the house. I have to go to a Memorial this weekend for a Good Friend. Finish up with many loose ends. I sincerely hope All IS Well for everyone who reads this and that life is gentle to your souls! :)

I will try to get back to the swing of things as soon as possible. I miss reading every ones entries, and feel a bit lonely without your love! Until then feel free to read my older posts on both sites. I could not have dealt with a lot of stuff in the past few months without my good friends here in Cyber land. Again thank you all for everything you have done for my soul and please stay true to your selves! Feel free to send me an Email, I'll be checking those as often as I can!

Like I have said "Life is what it is sometimes" and you get the privilege to share friendships with wonderful people like you! :)

Peace&Love
Wes

Good Morning Sunshine

11/27/08

On this morning I awoke from a restful night. I fell asleep holding my child and wife. I woke early to one of natures delights. The morning hues were dark blue almost black.Light shining through with a lighter blue. A whitish blue and blue gray. Behind the treetops beyond the houses. The sun lit the early sky with a hint of yellow and gold. A faded orange with a brighter orange as the sun rose. I stood outside in the cold morning. I stood outside slightly shivering in a thankful silence. The approaching sun revealed a thin frost on the ground. I was like a shaking statue watching the Fall sky. I waited for the glorious star to punch through the horizon.

I said to myself " I can feel joy overtake me! I can clearly see the Earth and Life's beauty! I feel the thrill of the morning chill."

It was a still quiet outside. As the seconds passed I remain motionless, I stood peacefully at ease. Then suddenly the morning sky turned silver and bright! It was a shame my camera's batteries were dead! No matter, it will play over and over in my head. For in my minds eye, I will remember this day. In my heart I will remember this sky! The rays of the rising sun allowed me to feel alive. Surprisingly refreshed in so many ways. Getting up before Five O' clock and without Coffee?

On this day I think about friends and family. Of all the memories and joys I've known. I can't help but think of those who have passed or moved far away. Happiness mixed with yearning for those I miss. Still my heart and mind is smiling from this morning. I think and thank life for the gift of living. My soul is surrounded with love and peace. I was casually content on this Thanksgiving still shivering in my pajamas.

I heard a soft sound from a short distance. It was the sweet sound of MJ waking. I dashed to greet her, and felt the warmth of the house envelope my body. I then stood over the bed and saw her smiling face. Snuggled next to her mommy under comfy covers. The bed looked more inviting than the Sunrise.

Although their beauty resembled the morning sunset. I stood there silently and noticed their white lights. With layers of hue and a warmth that touches the soul! Then suddenly they were both awake with a smile. We giggled, we laughed. I was reminded a loving laugh outweighs words, or a photograph.

Our baby girls innocence is so sincere and pure. We love her dearly and will love her always! With a love as bright as the sun and endless as the sky. We will love her with tight hugs and soft kisses. She will always be a baby in our minds eye! These are just a a few of the reasons why I was thankful today. I wish to state that my family's love is so bright, that it will warm your heart on the coldest days.

I wish to thank my family for the delicious meal today and for the love, happiness, and memories! Thank you All! :)

Blessed Be,
Wes

Fourteen Steps and A Baby

The last few days I have been moving stuff back and forth. Getting all the things in order for our move to the new place. Dealing with the Electric, Gas, Water, Garbage, and Cable company. Getting the address switched and discussing some repairs with the Landlord. Cleaning the place and shuffling the furniture around the boxes. Weeding out the items that are no longer suitable, now that we are parents of a very curious and mobile child.



I used to want to be an Antique dealer, or do the EBay thing. I have a wide range of collectibles, paintings to several types of glass ware. Most of the glassware is going, but I don't want to give away thousands of dollars in stuff. Especially, when I need some cash with the holidays coming up. When we need so muchfor the Apartment and for our future. A few years back I donated several old books from the 17oo's and some Glass items, that valued to over 10,000 dollars. I just don't have the time right now to separate, and look up the current values in this weakening economic market. It is hard enough just getting the many things done for this move, MJ requires lots of attention! It is mostly just me doing all these things while I'm watching her. Lisa is working like a dog, and getting little sleep right now. She is stressed about the money, and there is talk of a Lay off after the holidays? I will remain positive and hope for the best.



Tomorrow I have to wait for the Gas man, from 12:00 to 4:00? There goes most of my day just waiting, I might try to put some shelves together? Lisa and I put one together last night, it would have only taken about twenty minutes. Twenty minutes turned into over an hour, MJ was trying to help! It was so damn cute to see her grab a tool and try to assist us. Still, she is too young and would not play with her toys. She would not watch a movie or eat snacks. MJ wanted to help her Mom and Dad! :)



I have been trying to catch up on laundry and keep packing boxes. It just seems like I'm fighting the current right now, but the place is shaping up! It has and will take Baby steps! I realized (I HAVE TOO MUCH STUFF)! I could name all the nick knack stuff to the Antiques, but I have been collecting Sports cards, Autographs, Comics, etc. I have been lugging these things around since I was 5 yrs. old and sometimes I feel like I no longer need them.



I also have the responsibility of holding onto family keepsakes for most of the family. I proudly keep what is left of my Brother Don's stuff, until his Daughter Emily Jaye gets old enough to care for them properly. I love my niece, but until she moves out of her Moms, I will hold onto it!



I came to a decision (NO MATTER HOW OLD OR COOL SOMETHING IS I WILL NOT TAKE IT FROM FAMILY) right now! Unless, it is one of my Grandpas Grandfather Clocks. :)

I have loved those since I was very little, and can remember marveling at them for long periods of time. Trust me when I say I could go on about the items in hand, but I will leave it with the memory of the clocks. I do thank you for listening to that little rant about material items. (Mostly Crap)



The funny thing is just before we found out about MJ, we decided we would go out into the world and help people. We would put everything in storage, or sell it for the finances to travel the world. What was left we would donate to families that needed things, and the Antiques to Museums. It sounded great, and one day we will continue with the plan. We must wait till MJ says "Mom and Dad I want to go help people too" or she grows up.



I will always look back on the day I found out about Lisa's pregnancy as one of the greatest days of my life. It goes along with the day MJ was born. Right next to the day I married Lisa, and the day I gave her my telephone number. There are so many good memories to mention as I sit and write them on the computer. So, I will stop before they flood this screen like they have my heart and soul. It is a good flood, the kind that wets the river of my soul. It is the kind of emotions that I will undoubtedly cling to when the sky's are gray. They are my sunshine in my human mind, and my warmth inside my heart.



I'm one of those people who appreciate the little things, but also accept reality too quickly. Over time I have become a realistic dreamer, but still dream of pulling a "Ben Stein". For the people who don't know who he is, don't loose sleep and give yourself red eye. In my opinion he is true Jack Of All Trades, he was a speech writer, Author, Actor, and Game show host. I know I have forgotten other accomplishments, but would like to leave you with one his lines "Bueller, Bueller"



I know with life I will have to take it one step at a time, and do one goal at a time. Especially now that I'm a father and a Husband. I'm sure people feel this way who are not, I think it is just motivation mixed with urgency, and a little confusion. I would like to add a quote by Dr. Leo Marvin's book and Bob Wylie reaction "Baby Steps, Baby Steps"
Quote from "What About Bob" Ha Ha ;)



I have no Idea what I am typing right now, it is though my fingers and mind are working together. While I just sit here and stare at the keyboard, so bare with this cluttered ramble. I just wanted to say a simple Hello, and to keep some people posted on my last couple days. I'm so sick of the steps to the apartment already, there is only FOURTEEN, but lately it feels like more! It would not be so bad, but I must lug MJ in one arm and a small box in another! (I mean lovingly carry her in my arm) while I carry a small box.



I get more things done when she naps, or goes to bed. MJ has been having some sleep issues, she has not been going to bed very early. The earliest the last couple weeks was tonight, it was about 1:30 this morning? I do love how she went to bed tonight, she came into the computer room all wobbly. She mumbled something and gave me a hug. I hugged her tight in return, and softly said "I love you little girl, now please go into your bedroom and go to sleep." Malayna Jane went into her room, and went to sleep. But not before I sneezed a few times and she said Bless you, and went to sleep.



I love it when she says Bless you, or uses manners in general. I always told people that my children would be well mannered above all things. If they were the rest would come easy and I would be truly happy to see them act as I was as a child. I'm so proud of her theses last few days, and of her mother. They have been putting up with me zigzagging all over the place. Putting up with me all jacked on coffee and talking at super speed.



I just want to have it all done on time, and have most of it done before Turkey day! I know now that it is an unlikely task to complete without much help, so I will go a little easier on my self. (Who needs exercise machines when you got stairs, countless heavy boxes, and heavy furniture?)



I thank you for stopping by my place and wish you all a Wonderful Day today! :)



Peace&Love

Wes

Yesterday Is Today's Future

On November 22, 1963 a great man was shot in Dallas, Texas. The man was John F. Kennedy, and he died soon after. For many years now there has been many theories, and I don't no which one to believe. It has been said it was Lee Harvey Oswald who acted alone, but will we really ever know? I wasn't born yet, but many people in my family were. They can only tell me with certainty that it was a sad day in American history. That the United states wept tears of rivers, and was slapped in the face with a bitter sting. I once did a report in school and I asked my grandmother "Who her favorite President was?" She responded with "It was John F Kennedy, because he was so young and tried to solve the many problems that faced this great nation at the time." She added "In the 1960's with all the tension and divide in the country, it was JFK who touched her, and got her to vote regularly. It sparked a passion for politics inside her, and was saddened later by Robert Kennedy's death as well."

Throughout the years I have researched much information on President Kennedy, and have watched numerous footage. I have made it a point to discuss it with my older relatives, and friends. It brought me to the conclusion, that he was an imperfect human like the rest of us. That this man who became President, was a very passionate man. He helped put this country in the direction it needed to go, but was robbed of his true success. I believe had he lived, we would have ended the war in Vietnam sooner. Many human rights issues would have ended earlier than they did. I could go on with speculation, but feel like it would be pointless. The bottom line is he helped this country in so many ways before is death, and with the help of his brothers, and did many great things.

I have met Robert Kennedy Jr. and was impressed. His father was a strong man as well, and believed in nature too. I believe had he not been robbed of the chance to lead this country, it would be a better place today. I'm not going into much detail about the Kennedy brothers, for most people no more about them than I do. I just wanted to pay tribute to JFK and to express my thoughts about the man. I wanted to remind people to remember the good things about him, and provide you with some of his quotes.

I would like to state that he would be proud to see that the American people voted for Barack Obama, despite of the color of his skin. He would be pleased to see that a Black man will be in the White house. I'm glad to see that people can get along sometimes and hope for a better tomorrow. I sincerely hope that society has embraced love and not hate for him and his family. I wish with my whole heart that we the American people can see the change that has been promised, and more importantly President Barack Obama's heart will stay strong. That he will be able to witness the better future that he helped create. May love bless him and his family! May the World be a kinder, better place for all.

JFK Quotes:

"If a free society cannot help the many who are poor, it cannot save the few who are rich."

"There is inherited wealth in this country and also inherited poverty."

"I am certain that after the dust of the centuries have passed over our cities, we, too, will be remembered not for victories or defeats in battle or politics, but for our contribution to the human spirit."

"Our national strength matters, but the spirit which informs and controls our strength matters just as much."

"No problem of human destiny is beyond human beings."

"One hundred years of delay have passed since President Lincoln freed the slaves, yet their heirs, their grandsons, are not fully free. They are not yet freed from the bonds of injustice. They are not yet freed from social and economic oppression. And this nation, for all its hopes and all its boasts, will not be fully free until all its citizens are free."

No one has been barred on account of his race from fighting or dying for America-there are no "white" or "colored" signs on the foxholes or graveyards of battle."

"Peace does not rest in charters and covenants alone. It lies in the hearts and minds of the people."

"Never have the nations of the world had so much to loose, or so much to gain. Together we shall save our planet, or together we shall perish in its flames. Save it we can-and save it we must-and then we shall earn the eternal thanks of mankind and, as peacemakers, the eternal blessing of god."

"All of us do not have equal talent, but all of us should have equal opportunity to develop our talents."

"I believe this nation should commit itself to achieving the goal, before this decade is out, of landing a man on the moon and returning him home safely to earth."

"Now we have a problem in making our power credible, and Vietnam is the place."

"Once you say your going to settle for second, that's what happens to you in life."

"With a good conscience our only sure reward, with history the final judge of our deeds, let us go forth to lead the land we love, asking His blessing and His help, but knowing that here on earth God's work must truly be our own."

If you have a favorite memory or a quote, or just want to state something that you liked about JFK. Please feel free, and please have a wonderful Sunday!

I would like to leave you with a poem that I penned on 11/22/93

JFK

He was a man who knew many things
When he ran for President.
When he gave a speech,
we knew what he meant.
What he stood for.
What he would teach.
He wanted peace, and intended to stop the war.
In so many ways, he contributed to this country.
One of his wishes was to help end racism,
even when others said it was out of reach.
Without men like him where would we be?
The day he was assassinated,
many said it was the day America lost it's innocence.
But, I feel this country has felt this pain many times before.
It is proven in the past, as it was in the 1960's.
What we lost was another good hearted human being.
The years have proven that we have not forgotten.
We the people remember!
One of our greatest presidents in history.
It still brings tears to Americans today.
It may always remain a mystery.
To the question, who killed JFK?

Peace&Love
Wes

The Marie-Antoinette A Real Person, A Real Award

Until I figure out how to do all this fancy computer stuff, this will have to do!

If you see the list of followers in the right hand corner of my place, I nominate all of them!

I would like to mention that Bucko put my name over at Bucko's World, so I would like to thank him for doing so.
:)

This is just a tired person trying to remember all of your first names, not in any specific order!

Bucko

Beth

Lisa

Jamie

Indigo

Amanda

Mark


Melissa

I would like anybody who does not know who theses wonderful people are, to please go have a look see! They all have unique qualities, and something special inside them. I can mention them specifically, but will let you discover them for yourself.



I want to thank everyone who stops by my place, and then decides to comes back again! I just want you all to know that this Lo Tech guy, with his Lo Tech site, is appreciative. Until I can get my Labtop, or I learn a few tricks, my words will have to paint you my pictures. My feelings and thoughts will have to be my computer extras! :)



Once again thank you for stopping by "Life's What It Is sometimes"

I wish you all a GREAT day today!

Peace&Love

Wes

The Stars Fall In November

Time is our music in life, it can be emotionally rewarding. It can reveal the truth that our soul has been aching for. What I mean is the answers to questions that has alluded our reach, when we required the meaning. Sometimes we are not supposed to have all the answers, we were meant to learn from our circumstances. By not knowing the meaning to our grievances or dilemmas, it has allowed us to grow.

Allowed us to become who we are today, time has revealed our current image in the mirror. Revealing our true light inside our body, and provided the answers we need to help others, before they duplicate the choices we've made in our lives. The hands on the clock can tick so loud in our brain, that we stay trapped in our bodies. When in reality, the tick tock in the clock is our rhythm to the beat in our hearts. It is the beat to our life's journey, it plays, it sings to our soul. Time speaks to us, it whispers to our heart.

Motivates us to get out on the dance floor, we call living. Every person has their own tunes that touches the heart. We as individuals, are the worlds conductor. Together we can play sweet music, together we can share life's stages in harmony. Time is not our enemy, it is our own fear that denies positive actions. Fear can prevent a person from moving forward, and halt humanities momentum. Think about it if the majority live in fear, that only leaves a minority who picks up an instrument to play in life's orchestra.

I'm not saying that people who live in fear don't help humanity, I have always tried to help others first. Even if I allowed time, fear, or myself get in the way of my own happiness. I would envelope my emotions by doing good deeds, because it took away the hurt inside my heart. I think no matter what I do in this life, I will still carry some sadness. But will try not to let the fear, or societies madness interfere with my path.

For some time now, I've had great positivity in my life! I have had a wonderful wife for almost a decade, and have had beautiful children in my life. I have a couple nieces, a nephew, and now an amazing daughter! Some of my family has kept my souls candle burning, but for some time I have been lighting the candles myself.

It feels good to have love, faith, and hope in my heart. I know I sound like a touchy feely Guru or something! I only speak the truth that I have discovered on the journey I've shared with those who have wandered onto the path I take. I love the souls that have touched my life, no matter their reason! I have gained so much strength, in such a short time.

Sometimes fear still tries to dig holes under my fence of faith, it tries to cross the bridge to my heart. Sometimes it does get in, but I sick my dog named strength to chase it away from my soul. Fear can be like a hungry animal, circling its prey. It waits to pounce, when we let our guard down. We must not fear, fear itself, but feed it love. Quench its thirst with courage and strength!

Just like time, fear can be a part of the music. But we should only allow it to be a small part of our opus. When we finally reach the climatic finish, we should be elated.


I would like to share a couple poems I wrote on November 18 in my life.

The first one I wrote shortly after my Brother's passing, and have used parts of it in many of my friends and families Eulogy's. I put it in an entry called "Just Think About Flowers" on 8/25/08

11/18/98

From the second we are born.
We are dying.
Time casts its shadow over life.
Father time continues in full circle.
Life's hands fold as hands do with prayer.
Picture one hand as life.
The other hand as death.
When you pray to your god,
realize despite all cries.
They are joined together.
So, I ask can courage cover the eyes of fear?
We are born to die.
Acceptance and faith is key.
The body is motionless,
but we are now free!


11/18/02

I looked up many miles away.
At the fading fall sky with wonder.
What a wonderful show, meteors pierced the heavens.
Shooting across both dippers, and right through Orion's Belt.
The frost nipped at my fingers and creeped into my bones.
Standing Still,
I could not take my curious eyes off the Earth's Television from above.
One after another, whizzing, zipping through the moonlit sky.
Vision is so overlooked.
I feel lucky to be alive!
To have witnessed such a splendid scene.
To hear natures feathered audience applaud with a whistle.
One after another chirping and cooing, up in nature arms.
There was another!
Did you see it?
Right passed that ball of cheese.
I will remember the quiet that put me at ease.
The frost traveled down to my little piggies,
yet I did not go home.
Star bright, star light, one of natures delights.
All the shooting stars, rather meteors!
I gazed above, I was lost in thought.
A million falling stars.
A million wishes.
I made enough to last my lifetime.
At this point I could not feel my fingers,
only a slapping sting.
In life there are tough decisions,
and speckles of regret.
As the cold touched my head to my toes, I made a final wish.
I know customarily it's supposed to be a secret.
Just this once I will let it slip.
I wish for World Peace!
So, that our children's children will get to see beautiful things too.

I thank you all for stopping by my place, and reading this early morning ramble.
I wish you all a fantastic day and a beautiful evening!

Peace&Love
Wes

Hear No, See No, Speak No...

It has been a busy weekend for my wife and I. We have been hauling stuff to the new apartment, and packing. We have managed to find some time to relax and enjoy MJ. She is getting big and I mean fast! Outfits I bought her not even a month ago aren't fitting her. I knew this happened, but not this fast! She will only be 20 months old on the 22ND, and she is already been a tad bit over three feet. I will have to go get her some more outfits for the rest of Fall and Winter.

She is enjoying all the new space, and the echo effect of the apartment. The last few weeks have been entertaining with MJ, she is mimicking just about anything I say or do! At least when other people aren't around, it never fails. If I get her to say certain cute phrases, she will make me a liar almost every time. The downside to it is I really have to watch what I say now. I don't want even a humorous comment about a certain family member to get back to them. I don't curse that often, but do sometimes, so I take extra steps not to use them in front of her. I use words like "Darn it to heck" "Oh fooey" "Fudge it " "Oh Thumper's Mother" she did say that "If you don't have anything nice to say. Don't say any thing at all."

I noticed years ago that kids are like animals, and right now we have a little parrot named MJ. Your children will investigate things constantly, and get into the things they are not supposed to. Kids will test their boundaries, and your patience. You are not really in control, they only allow you to think you are sometimes. I'm not saying I sit a food dish on the floor, or give her a flea bath. I don't have one of those leashes for kids, that I have seen at the parks or the mall.

A leash for children, I knew they existed, but never saw one in use. They are almost like a choke chain, at least that is how some parents use them. I have been half tempted to go put a parent over my knee, and spank them. (Only the good looking ones! HA HA)
No, seriously if you have one, or think that they are good. Please don't treat your kid like a dreaded pet! I think the next time I see a parent with one, I will ask them can your kid do any tricks? Or will they chase this ball if I throw it over there? I wonder what they would say to me if I really did ask them that? All right enough with the rant, I will just stick to talking about our beautiful little devil. :)

(No she is an angel who can act like most adults sometimes)

Malayna is a joy and a motivator at the same time! She can make the most negative days seem a little more optimistic. Still I try not to think about her future, because it unknown like ours. I try not to think too much about time, when it comes to her. I try to just live in the moment, and plan for our future as a family. I can be one of those people who converse with someone about movies, and catch myself thinking "That movie was 20 years ago, Wow!" I have been guilty of listening to music and recalling a concert I went to 15 years ago, and wondering where the time went? It is magnified with a child in the family, or from a kid you used to babysit. So, it is best to to keep focused on the moment, and then look back years later with a smile.

I will admit it is tempting to have her quote parts from certain movies, or have her sing some mature songs. But if I did I wouldn't tell you! (WHISPER WHISPER) We have secretly been quoting Tarantino films, or listening to Lenny Bruce stand ups. Watching the Exorcist and Cheech and Chong movies! :) Ha Ha

We have been just enjoying life for what it is sometimes, and have the most fun that we can in this wonderful world.This weekend was pretty good Lisa, MJ, and I laughed lots. We played games and did some crafts for mom. Ended up watching a couple movies in bed "Cuddly, comfy, and cozy" style.

I hope that you all have good day and even better night!

Peace&Love
Wes

Howdy All

It has been a crazy November, and I want to let everyone know that I will try to get back to your journals. As you can see I can barely find the time to get to mine! I have been helping family out, and boxing some stuff up. Also dealing with many things at once, and trying to keep positive. Trying to keep sane in this maddening planet we call home, and raise our daughter. Going to storage and digging out the Christmas stuff, and our winter things! I know I said it WINTER! My mind still has not made the adjustment to the clock being set back yet.



The last few days I have been checking out some apartments. Some have been good and others have been awful! I had been looking for another house to rent, but no luck. For some time I thought about buying a house, but not in these times. Once the economy gets healthy again, I hope to find a decent house for my family. This will have to do for now, and they will accept our Morning Dove Birdie and Froto the ferret. I talked them out of the year lease, and that pleases me. If I can get out of the lease, that allows me to move to somewhere else sooner. It all seems OK for now, and I will bust my butt to make things better.



I have had some computer problems as well, I have tried to reach some journals. When I start to read them they freeze or my computer wants to shut off? Once I figure out the new bills, and get moved I will get me that lab top. This will do for now! The last few days I started writing some kids books again, and some very serious stuff. I'm waiting for some research to make into my hands, and I will be ready to go. My family is doing OK for now, and MJ has been amazing!



I miss reading all your journals, and hope everything is going well for my cyber friends. I want to thank Beth, Ken, and Indigo for stopping by the other day! It meant so much to me to read your comments! :)



I hope life has been "Marvelous"for you all, and that your days have been peaceful! Bless your Hearts, Souls, and Minds. Bless you and your days! I also wish to Bless your Families lives as well.



Peace&Love

Mr. Mushy

He Was A Good Man

Born: 5/14/76 Died: 11/08/98

WE LOVE YOU DON AND ALWAYS WILL!
Love your family!
Rest In Peace & Love.

Love,
Your Little Brother Wes

I Approve This Message

THIS IS ABOUT POLITICS AND SOME OF MY OPINIONS!
IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE SOME TRUTH AND SOME SWEAR WORDS.
IF YOU ONLY BELIEVE IN ONE PARTY POLITICS.

THEN PLEASE DON'T READ THIS!


I can remember the first time I thought about politics, it was when I was about six years old. I was thumbing through an encyclopedia and looking at the Presidents. It amazed me, it consisted of mainly portraits, but a couple photos. I gazed at Washington and thought he looked like a nice man, but I thought he looked funny with his white hair. I had heard the story about the Cherry tree, and his wooden teeth. I counted my way through the Presidents, and was stuck on Abe Lincoln. I thought his portrait looked very distinguishable, and read a little about him.

Our 16Th President, during the Civil War. I thought what a time to be president, and with slavery going on! Then I read about his tragic death, and that he was popular in Illinois. My home state, and that I wasn't too far from where he was a Lawyer, and later became a Congressman. His Ideas, and actions really resonated in my soul. Then to be shot in Fords Theater by John Wilkes Booth, leaving Johnson in charge!

I made my way to Both Roosevelt's, and found good things about each man. Then I made my way to John F. Kennedy, and I looked at his portrait, and began to read more about him. I was impressed with his Idea of the Peace Corps, and memorized his quote "Ask not what your country can do for you, ask what you can do for your country!" Later I learned about Bay of Pigs, and the rumors of M. Monroe. When I was at that age, I was impressed by many simple things, but was stuck on November 22, 1963! We has lost another Good man to an assassins bullet, and learned that his brother Robert was shot too. He would have made an even better President than most, including JFK! I'm not forgetting the other tragic losses in time, but merely discussing the Presidents. I made my way to Jimmy Carter, and was favoring him, because he was Commander and Chief when I was born. Plus there was something to be said, about him being a peanut farmer, and I loved peanuts.

I learned later in life, that what they taught us in school wasn't always the truth! That in history, it is usually written by the victors!

I learned more about the power of the position, when Ronald Reagan was President. He was the man who affected my life more than those in the book. He was showing America how Reaganomics worked, and how many of his people face criminal trials. I asked a lot of questions, concerning the trials, and the wrong doings. Many adults would say I was too young to understand, that when I got older, I would see the big picture! I may have been a child, but I saw the impact from the Reagan Administration. Many people starving, and being put on welfare, and having to use food stamps! Broken unions, and the lack of good jobs. How some parents had to work two jobs, and miss out on ballgames and family functions. I noticed they had lavish engagements at the White house, while Americans suffered. Having to eat powdered eggs, and mix powdered milk with regular milk. Going to second hand stores, instead of regular stores.

That's why when I look at pictures of kids from this time period, we look like we are from the 1970's. All wearing plaid, or corduroy pants, with generic tennis shoes. We had to learn about the Iran Contra scandal, good old Ollie North. We watched him fall asleep during important televised events! His dealings with Nuclear arms, and his reactions to the Aids epidemic. His actions were pretty clear when it came to the Earth's pollution, and here is a quote by President Reagan in 1980.

"Approximately 80 percent of air pollution stems from hydrocarbons released by vegetation, so let's not go overboard in setting and enforcing tough emission standards from man-made sources."

You can break down old walls that separate people, but put up larger ones that are invisible! I could go on about all the "Positives" and Negatives, but will say that Bush was his second in command. He was just as responsible for the economy, and the decline of America as President Reagan!

Then came the election of 1988, Bush verses Dukackis. I remember it well, I assisted on the canvassing for Micheal Dukackis. My siblings and I went around the Bartonville, Illinois area to hand out literature. It was in the fall, and I could smell some leaves burning as the chilled air nipped our noses. Overall most people were friendly, but some were plain rude! I had someone spit at me, and tell me that my family were cowards for sending me to their door. I tried to state my point, but they slammed the door.

Nobody would believe a kid my age would want to partake in a civic duty anyways! I was proud to be part of the 1988 election, and to help our country shed the Reagan administration. Like I said George Bush was a big part of our times, and we needed better for children, and their families. I know at the time I was too young to understand why Dukackis lost, but can remember seeing him in the tank with his helmet. People had a hay day with that, and focused on it till the end of the election. I was reminded of the same kind of coverage, when Howard Dean went, "Heeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwww!" To this day, I will never believe that a man ahead by that much, and nobody near him points wise, could suffer over a holler?

I was proud of our efforts to get some new blood in the oval office, but that was when I learned about political defeat. It was one of my first times I tasted false hope, and realized that I could make a good President. I practiced my hand shakes, and signing my name years before. Now I no longer wanted to be a ballplayer, or a magician. I wanted make great changes for our country, and the world. I would be the greatest President ever, I would break the barriers that existed between all people, I would join together The People Of this Nation! I'd fight all Injustice and end all wars, especially the Weaponless Civil war that was still ramp it. I desired to heal all sickness by spreading the wealth. Instead of letting people become Billionaires, I would encourage them to donate some of their fiances to Great causes!


Together we could solve world hunger, together we could save the planet from greed's destruction, and yes I did talk like this as a child! I can be honest, I thought of this stuff on my own. (My Father did teach about manners, and introduced me to Nature!) If I did get some guidance, it was from some of the worlds greatest leaders in history. John Kennedy, Robert Kennedy, Martin Luther King, GANDHI, and Jesus! I had good intentions, and wanted to guide our Country to a better tomorrow! I did grow up watching "Mr. Smith goes to Washington" and thought that I could be Jimmy Stewart, but stay true to myself and Country! HA HA


When I was Finally 18, I was so excited! I would get to vote for a President, and other political issues. My voice could finally be heard, and I could be part of a greater change. I could participate in electing some new Hope, and start my political ambitions.

I deeply cared about the environment, homeless, unions, and education. I cared for peace and togetherness, which I rarely have seen in any election. My first Election I was able to vote was in 1996, Clinton verses Dole. I was so sure that Clinton would win, I wanted to vote for Ralph Nader, but didn't. (Nader bit us in the behind later)


I stuck to my environmental heart, and voted Clinton. Even though I know he betrayed the Union, over at Caterpillar. He shook hands and looked those workers in the eyes, and told them all that he cared, and that he would help them! They ended up getting the short end of the stick, and that is what pisses me off about that blow job! People lost focus on the mans actions as a Politician, and spent all that money on an investigation! Almost impeached in the house and senate. When we have had a President do much worse to all Nations. I can prove it to you, a list so big, that your head will spin, but I hope you can use some common sense! Open your eyes, and shut off the guilt inside, if you voted for him!


Count the troops lost in the Iraq war, when it was Afghanistan who was responsible. It was convenient to go get Saddam, for the Twin towers, when Bush Sr. could have and didn't years before! I used to know the total of civilian deaths in Afghanistan, and Iraq combined. But the number got so high I Lost track, but know it is over the casualties lost in New York. I know that in 2000, the American People did not want him in office, but the Supreme Court ruled in his favor. That was My wife's first time getting to vote, and that was truly a wasted vote for her and for most Americans. Yes I said It, A WASTE OF VOTE! The only happy people were people who voted for Bush, when no matter your opinion, he lost that race! He was handed the job by the powers that be, and it was not the PEOPLE!

"Too Close To Call"

I still cringe at those words today, and they will forever haunt my head! They will pain my heart like the rain on President Clinton's last day as our Nations leader. They burn in my memory like the day President Bush laid is hand on the Bible, to become Our Commander and Thief!

I thought for sure in 2004, that the American people would not allow him to have another chance. Just like this election, and most elections, John Kerry was not my first choice! I just knew that our Great Country would face a horrible future if he won again, and then came the words "It's a time to heal" My heart cried for too long, and my soul knew that the world was heading in a economic spiral!

It was heading in an Environmental collapse, and the world was mostly willing to improve their efforts, but he ripped up the Kyoto Treaty. It wasn't perfect, and I forget all the facts! But nobody can tell me what Bush has done is better! I have told you I belong to NO PARTY, and don't know everything! I use my heart and mind to discover truth, and common sense!

I had an Idea some years back, it was to collect information from all the newspapers, magazine's, and the News on television. Sit down add all the numbers up (The War Spending, and all Bills passed) and put the truth in order! Ha Ha


I could mention several times when money turned up missing, or how the Reasons for War changed! Who was a "traitor" for using the Freedom of Speech, and how people didn't support the troops, if they opposed the War. (When in fact it was the politicians who denied the troops proper gear, and Life Saving equipment! It was so damn hard to keep up with the lies from the Administration, and the Media! I compiled so much information, I had to get a storage unit! My friends and I went through so much information, that it would blur, or it would feel like your head could explode. The spending numbers never added up, and it was impossible to track exactly where the money was truly going?

We have all witnessed things in the last 8 years, that are criminal, and unjust! (Katrina, The war, Corruption, Environmental Crimes) We the People have allowed many people in the Bush administration, Democratic and Republican parties, Corporations, Pharmaceutical companies and other Countries POISON OUR CHILDREN! Poisoning them with Pollution, Greed, Hatred, and Toys! We have allowed places like Walmart sell faulty products, for far too long. Have you ever went near the back of the store to read the recalled products? It is usually electrical products or Baby/Child products, and it has been going on for years! Don't you think that POLITICIANS KNOW ABOUT THESE ISSUES?


We have allowed these people to touch Our Constitution, and pass laws that take away OUR Rights. I will admit that with time comes change, but will continue to state that The United States was significantly changed by the 2000 Election, and has paid the price every since! It has cost us many Liberties, Soldiers lives, Our Economy, Children's Education, A Cleaner Earth, and Millions of Lives World wide! I have noticed over the years that other countries, Stand up for their rights, and seem to have more freedom from courage. I'M A PACIFIST, I do not believe in violence, unless in SELF DEFENSE! I mention Freedom In Courage, when I see other Countries Rise to the Occasion, and March together for all causes!


When John Kerry said that "It was a time to heal" he should have said, Put your head between your legs and bend over! I don't belong to a specific Party, so if any one reads this an thinks, I'm a"Liberal piece of shit" YOUR WRONG! I have voted for a republican before, on lower levels of politics. I will admit all these people were never my first choice, and I could find better candidates in this country. They are too smart to want to be President, for the President is just a puppet! Senators and Congressman usually just fuss and fight, and give themselves raises. Put horrible things inside good Ideas, and make a point to mention that so and so, didn't vote for this bill. But fail to mention that inside that bill was hidden spending! They do that to persuade good people to vote for bad things, and if they don't vote for it "They don't care for the American people!"

They would rather honor people by naming a Street or School for an individual, instead embracing that persons Ideas. It easy to say that you believe in something but harder to hide the truth by your actions! If people believed in MLK, then why do we have leaders and a Country that still flames the fires of hate. If most of the World believes in Jesus, why are we still fighting these wars, and why does our Country fight healing lives?


I could go on about many people from both parties over the years! I know that within politics there are some Great decisions made by good people, and some needed laws passed! I know without law their would be disorder, and without Puppets there would be nobody to blame! It has been very difficult these last couple decades for me, I wanted nothing more than the betterment for mankind. I wanted to be a Great Political Leader, only to Discover that "Mr. Smith Goes To Washington" is the overall truth in Politics. I still am proud to Vote, and excited about the political process, but try to put the CHILDREN FIRST on Voting day!

I just wish that We The PEOPLE would not only vote to clear our conscience, but vote to remove the People Responsible from their elected positions. I wish WE THE PEOPLE would not have waited this long, to take action! I hope that the American people will (Wake Up) and not wait for the moment we swear in our New President, to STAND TOGETHER.


NO matter who wins, we need to challenge them to make the Right Decisions! We need to make sure the Future of the world is stable enough to survive the coming years! It is not too late to make things right, It is not too late for a Healthier Environment.

I know that when I saw Barrack Obama on July 5, 2005, he was outside talking to reporters by his SUV. When I was selected, I asked him my questions about the Environment, he really didn't give solid answers.He said that we need to limit people from driving Gas hogs, and that there was no proof that droughts and bad weather was due too pollution. He defended McCain and Lieberman on a bill they were trying to pass, that he cosponsored? He did say that we needed to come up with new technologies, to curb our dependency on Foreign oil. I had heard all this before, and wanted something more!

If you were wondering my questions or more about this day, you'll have to wait till a later entry! This was before he announced that he would run for President, yet after the town hall event the Local News papers were saying this could be our next President?

I have followed McCain for some time, and used to like what he stood for? Years ago I would have maybe voted for him, but things change, and so did he? I do agree with Obama when he brings up the fact that McCain has voted with Bush several times. I saw an add where McCain says "I voted with President Bush more than any other member in his party, about 90% of the time"????

Like I have told people for the longest time, that these candidates were not my first choices, and will vote for OUR CHILDREN'S future! I will vote for the environment, and for the betterment of mankind! I will not sit back and watch the World crumble any longer, we need change! We need somebody who will not continue to run this Country into the Depression it is heading! We need leadership that can put a dent into the damage caused by President George Bush, and lead (Our World) into a brighter hope for tomorrow, and a cleaner place WE THE HUMANS can peacefully coexist with all LIFE! A healthier place to call home, and a Future for OUR CHILDREN!

Whoever wins on Tuesday is obligated to the World to Begin the process of Change! They are expected to Deliver the Hope that they PROMISED THE AMERICAN PEOPLE! They must not forget WE OUR THE PEOPLE, and that we will Challenge them to do what is right this time!

WE MUST ACT NOW!

PEACE&LOVE
Loren Wesley

A Wake Up Call

My wife called me a little after 5:00 this morning, and said she was in the Hospital! She started work at 2:00 am, and was directing traffic at the plant. Apparently she was walking when she passed out, and hit the gravel road. She said it was like she felt like a robot, and she was shutting down? When I loaded MJ up, and drove to pick her up, the Security guard told me her blood sugar levels spiked? Lisa can't remember much, but said it blood pressure was very bad. She will go into the doctors soon, and we will know more than. She required several stitches, and bit through her lips. She told me on the phone that she was ugly, and that I would not recognize her. She was wrong I saw her beautiful Blue eyes, and Shining soul!

I have tried to tell her that it could have been much worse, and thank goodness for the Hard hat, and Safety glasses! I don't know how , but she should have knocked out most of her teeth and broke her nose, but didn't? I just want to help her out in any way that I can, and will love her always!

Everybody has been sick, and MJ has had the oddest sleep times! She has been going to bed past 3:00 in the morning, and didn't pass out till 4:45 am when Lisa called me! I didn't get much sleep, and will have to do lots of stuff today. Forgive me for my ramblings, and lateness on reading entries.

Her is some good news! My Dad finally got out of the Hospital, and is home right now sleeping in his own bed! I hope it last longer than 2 days this time, and that he is kicking CANCERS ASS!
I will be putting out a few entries in the very near future, when I can find the time.

I wish you all beautiful days and magnificent evenings! :)

Peace&Love
Wes

A Poet's Travels: I Had It "Made" for a while!

The house still smells like coconut shrimp and mango sauce. A friend from my old job brought me a box to try, and I couldn't say no! I will have to admit it was delicious, and the sauce is what made it even better. The funny thing is less than two years ago, I wouldn't have touched shrimp, or coconut anything! I have loved almost all foods, but did not like either one. I have been eating things with coconut, and shrimp every since my Grandfather in Georgia made me some fried shrimp. I know all about the mercury in fish, so I try to limit myself to eating it all the time.

The moral to my little story is (Don't be afraid to try new things, or food you hated as a kid)
Taste buds change over time, and eating certain things continually, will seemingly burn you out! There are many types of food I could eat all the time, and one is Italian anything!

My old friend Franko, who lived near Chicago owned a wonderful little place. It was a little white church, turned into a restaurant. On the front of the joint said "Bachi" in red letters. (Which is weird for a church restaurant, an Italian friend told me last year that it meant something naughty?) It was on Lockport Street, in the town of Plainsfield, IL.

Franko was Italian, and his place was full blown Italian food. I walked in there one day, and he says to me "Have you had the Pizza yet, No! Then its on the house, and every day that you come in here I want you to try something new, and let me Know what you thinka! And I don't want your money! Mario, don't ever take these two guys money! It's on the house"

Needless to say I went there all the time, and that included the wine list! I still gave great tips, and helped him on some small "Jobs."

I met all the people in his crew, and we HIT it off. "I was part of the Family"

I was working as a salesman in Chicago, and was staying in Hotels. The cheapest hotel I could find was near Plainsfield, and the BEST ITALIAN FOOD EVER was for FREE! I couldn't complain, I was doing alright. I loved many things about this time in my life, and almost worked as a male model, but chickened out. I don't regret it either, has anybody seen "Zoolander" when he's dancing like a monkey! :)I feel that would have been me! I almost got a job as Window washer! The ones who wash the windows on the skyscrapers, I didn't mind the heights, but in the "Windy City!" (Thanks but no Thanks)

Back to the restaurant, I was doing OK, and one day he approaches me, with a BUSINESS proposition. He Offered my friend and I a job, catering his food to business corporations in Chicago. I had the van, he had the food, and all we had to do was get the big food warmers for the van. He said "He Would take care of everything, and that we would make a lot of dough. That it was in our hands, if we wanted in on his BUSINESS." My friend Minor and I , only knew this guy a short while, and he seemed to good to be true! That we would be delivering "Food" to places, and driving around Chicago traffic. We would waltz into big corporations with unopened dishes, and that would be it?

My friend backed out, and I still entertained the Idea, because I try not to judge a book by its cover. That was until I sat and notice things, like all the shops on the street were owned by Italians, and some of his people made numerous trips to the bank?

One day I was sitting and eating at the restaurant, and a beautiful waitress comes by. She smiles at me, and I smile back. Later My friend comes out and says "Do you think she is pretty?" I replied "Yes"

He says to me "That is my niece from Italy, and she would make a good wife! If you want I could introduce you to her, and let you two get acquainted." He calls her over, and walks away. Leaving the two of us alone. She was an amazing girl, but I wanted him to return as soon as possible. He returned a few minutes later, and sensed that I wasn't happy.

I was so shocked, but upfront with him, and said "I mean you and her no disrespect, but I'm kind of trying to work something out with a girl, and I'm not looking for marriage right now! I believe you when you say that she would make a good wife, and I would like to get know her as a friend. Like with you!" He looked as if he was shocked and pleased at the same time.

Then he says to me "I like you! I like your honesty, and the fact that you are a strong individual. I meant you no disrespect, only wanted to offer you the chance to find some happiness, and be a part of my family. I hope this does not get in the way of our business opportunity, or our friendship!"

I told him that everything was fine, and that I appreciated the offer. That there was no disrespect by is invitation, and that I hoped he was alright with that. His niece and I did have dinner that evening, and it was very pleasant. We had the top of the restaurant to ourselves, and laughed and talked for some time. We listened to some amazing Opera music, some of the Rat Pack tunes, and drank some wine. The night lasted longer than I anticipated, and the moment carried over till morning. We both knew that we were not going to see each other again, so we made the best of our time. It was a good night, and a wonderful morning!

After I declined on the business idea, he offered me a job at the the restaurant. Until I figure out what I wanted to do, and got a decent place. Somehow he persuaded this lady that turned me down a month ago to rent this great place! It was above the local Newspaper, and he said he could get me a job there if I wanted it. At this point I was freaked out, and didn't know what to say. I told him I had a family emergency back home, that I would return in a couple days with an answer.

I returned a couple days later, and told him that I appreciated everything he did for me and my friend, that I had to respectively decline. That I was going down south for some sales work, and would call him when I came back into the area. Time passed and life had other crazy plans for me, and I didn't make it back to the area for almost a year.


Franko welcomed me and Minor with open arms "Anything you two guys want it is on the house, and bring the best bottle of whine we got!" After we hate and had a couple bottles, he told me that "The wine we were drinking, we could not get any more, that some of the greatest writers, and Italian artist drank this wine! I can't remember the name of the wine, and didn't get to see a bottle, but it was good and strong! I could tell it was an aged wine. I won't pretend to know a lot about wine, but it was Delicious!

I don't know why things were the way they were, but can say it was fun. I can't tell you everything, for fear of a horses head in my bed, but can say it was an experience that I will always remember!There is more to this story, and I would love to tell you all the details. But I fear I have said too much, and must be a Good Fella, and not rat nobodies out! Ha HA

I can still hear some Italian sayings that echo in the my mind! But one sticks in my head like the cheeses in the lasagna, "Il tempo idenaro" Time is money! I heard him say that one often, to his employee's. Another one I say to my wife and daughter, "Tu are splendido" You are beautiful"

We talked about the last year, and that we loved his friendship and his food! I told him that I would return, and tell all my friends about the place. It was about a couple years later, and I went back with a girlfriend. I went to ask about Franko, and his brother told me he moved to Arizona, and that he was well. I told him to tell him that one of the "two guys"says hello! His brother was kind to me and my date, he gave us a meal on the house. I discovered after all these years, that it was kindness that ran deep in his Family!

So, in memory of my my past, and to all the good people. I raise a glass and say "salute" and "Grazie"

I hope you all "Buona giornate" and "(Milles) Grazie" for stopping by!

Arrivederci,
Wes

Row, Row, Row Your Boat

I try to stop thinking about all the things that are bothering me, but can't! I try to think of something funny to say, but keep thinking about reality. Life can be very challenging, and full of surprises. We can go to bed with a smile to wake up with a frown, and one moment be on top of the world, only to be knocked down. One thing is constant, I will keep positive about life's plan.

I know that other people have bigger fish to fry than myself, and know I'm not a victim, rather a student in these lessons of life. I have to keep my mind focused on my spiritual growth, and the love I have for others. I can remember in my youth, I was certain that I would be very successful at this point in my life. I was certain I could save those who needed saving, and lead all the people in my life to calm waters. When we are young, we think that we can conquer anything that stands in our way. I read other peoples entries, and see that whatever happened in life, they have strength from their experiences, and a place to call home.

I was and am a dreamer, I still cling to Ideas that I will be something great! That I will be able to help others for a living, whatever that might be? I have always done better helping other people, before myself. In past jobs, and walking down the street people have came up to me for advice. A few times total strangers have shared a small part of life, and looked to me for advice. I would tell them, I don't know you or your life story, but think that you should follow your heart. I will listen to what the problem is, and put my two cents in, but ask myself Why Me? Not that I don't want to, or don't like to help. It scares me that it happens so often , it is like a moth going to a bright flame. I only wish is I did in fact help them, and they were able to feel their good soul inside, like I do when I help them!

Right now my heart is aching, and my mind is uncertain. My soul screams to help people, but whispers to my heart, to help myself first. It is hard for me to get out of bed theses days, because I don't have a sure path. I know I love my family, and myself! I do know that if I could find a career that lets me help others, and make descent money. I could discover my inner peace, and be where I want to be in this troubled world. If money didn't exist, I could be more clear minded. Unfortunately it does, and so do bills. Now that I'm 31 yrs. Old, and have a family I have to think about financial security. I have been trying to do that for a few years now, and seemed to have chosen the wrong jobs. It has never failed, I get the short end of the stick when it comes to keeping that security.

I will not go into great details on the jobs I have had, but say that in some I helped Mentally and Physically challenged people. I loved that job, but realized that the people in charge didn't care about others like I did! I have worked with animals, and found that the powers that be would rather kill than heal. I have worked with churches on distributing food, and the main focus was being selective on who would receive help. I have worked at places like Goodwill, and discovered that items would be placed aside for the bosses, and what was left would be priced too high! I worked at a nursing home as a janitor, and witnessed neglect and abuse. In one occasion, a man was standing with his pants all the way down, begging me to pull them up, before a guided tour would see him. I assisted him , before they could see, and the bad thing was the Director was with them. In this example, the man's son was an assistant coach for the New Orleans Saints at the time. You got to figure he made good money, but placed his father in a home?

Don't get me wrong, I loved the people in all these jobs , but could not stomach the neglect, and could not keep quiet. Resulting in unpleasant departures, and people told me to do my job, and keep quiet. People in my family looked at me with disappointment, rather than pride. I don't regret the ways I handled myself, and would do it all over again. I would just deal with it better, and would have found a way to hold those accountable for their actions. I have discovered people like to sweep things under a rug, or pretend that all is good , when it's not!

I have worked on other jobs where safety was supposed to be number one! When in fact it was the opposite, we did not have the proper equipment, or training. I know this happens all the time, and most people will continue to do the jobs asked. I have been guilty of this too, but have stood up for the other workers, even if they didn't want me to. I can recall a time that we were supposed to go into a tank, and have respirators. It was almost lunch time, so I stated to my coworkers "Lets go have an early lunch, and wait till we get our safety equipment" We started to leave when the "Boss told all of us, if we went to lunch we would not have a job to go back to! Go ahead and take lunch Wes, but don't come back" The rest of the workers went back work, and I went to lunch. I wasn't fired for it, but lost respect for my coworkers, and my job!

I know that there are good jobs out there, and I will find one, but without school? I know that if I want to I can still help others without payment, but have to think of my family. I will still help others, but do it like I always have for free! I lack the proper qualifications to land an amazing job helping others, but would like nothing more than to devote my life to helping people, or animals!

I have said enough about that, probably too much! I don't ask for hand outs, and have never owned a credit card. I have not tried to take more than my own fill, and have followed the belief "If I don't have the money, I don't get it!" Sometimes I have splurged on things like movies, or a CD, when I should have saved it. I'm far from perfect, and know that I could have realized the truth about myself a lot faster! I could have helped myself before I helped others, but still feel good, no matter my place in life. I know that my life was designed, and have slowly accepted my path. I have grown from my mistakes, and from my choices! I have gained information from the school of life, and have graduated on so many levels. I have become stronger than I was as a teenager, and wiser than one too.

I look at our daughter and see I need to locate my path as soon as possible. But at the same time I look at her and see my path. I love taking care of her, and sometimes feel that I can do better. I want her to be happy, and not have to worry like I had to when I was a kid. I want her to be in a position, where she can go to any school she wants, and give her more than love, when the bills come in. I want her to understand that we have to work for what we want in life, and not be discouraged by my lack of financial security. Not be discouraged by my place in this world, and to understand that sometimes we live on principals, not the mighty dollar. It is extremely important for me to find my middle, and get paid for something I love doing. I no longer want to dread a job, and justify it by the paycheck. I will do what ever it takes to provide for my family, but will always long for better. A Better for the ones I love, and the strangers on the the street.

My life as been very hard, and very emotional this year. I wouldn't say harder than others, but more complicated. I have been trying to keep the love and peace in my family, and for myself. I have been juggling my life, and not making much head way. It all comes back to acceptance and strength. I have no regrets about most of my actions, but wish to make them up to others and myself. I want to lead by example, but must first find my present self.

Cancer is starting to eat at my heart, and is spreading to my brain. I have experienced death countless times, but it was usually sudden. My fathers situation is very different, he withers away from cancer and his treatments. The man that stands before me can't even stand! The man that sits before me can barely keep his head up, and shakes from pain. The man who lays before me can't even open his eyes, or talk. The man who sleeps before me can't even hug his children, or weep.

I will remain positive that he will heal from prayer, and from love. I will keep faith in life's plan, and that no matter the outcome. I will still wake up each day with infused knowledge, and keep my head up. When I sleep, I will still keep my dreams alive, and when I'm awake I will try to be strong and true to myself and to others! I will still keep the love for all things flowing in the unpredictable rivers of life. I know that If I fight the current my body will tire, and if I let the current take me, I will be pushed into places that are not my home. I will swim with the water rather then be pushed down another waterfall. I can see a boat by the shore, and will try my damnedest to reach it. When I finally do, I will pick up all the passengers I see!

Peace&Love
Wes

That's Not Mud McCain/Palin Are Slinging!

LWIIS NEWS :)

We Report:
As of 2:00 A:M this morning a spokesperson for the McCain/Palin campaign said this:

"We at the McCain headquarters wish to apologize for attacking a person character, and for slandering the good name of Barrack Saddam Osama Hitler Hoover Stalin Bush Obama. That we wish to cater not just to the rich, but any one who will vote for us, and believe what we want you to believe."

Reporters yelling and shouting! "If he is so sorry why is he.." "Why has he been saying.."

"Sorry no questions or comments!" "We only wish to apologize to the American people and the Barrack friend of a terrorist Obama campaign. We Wish you all a good day!"

LWIIS Reports:

Reporter No.1 There you have it folks the McCain/Palin people sure know how to say there sorry, and really seem to care about the American people. When I say care about the American people I mean Joe the Plumber!

Reporter No.2
What was the words of wisdom he was saying? I believe he said if we vote for Obama life would go down the crapper! That Obama's words don't float in his bowl, that when he is near McCain/Palin that he smells something very familiar. That it reminds him of his duties at work?

Reporter No.2
Could it be the smell of victory? Could it be he thinks that that the Republican party has a chance to flush the democrats out of their victory, and that he chooses to plunge head first into this election?

Reporter No.1
I really don't have the answer, but can say that he can decide what is best for America, and the working man! That who better than Joe the Plumber! I can say that these times are tough, maybe a little SWIRLY, but we can do it together as Americans! He's right we can smell something familiar with him, and the McCain/Palin campaign.

Reporter No.2
I believe your on to something here, but fail to realize it is the smells of shit being thrown around!

Reporter No.1
Well there you have it folks the McCain/Palin people have given us a wHOLE new meaning to the term mud slinging!

South Park & Lakewood Terrace

5/5/98


The empty forest,
The unoccupied tables.
Not a roaring fire in sight!
For me the voices echo eternally,
down the forgotten trails.

To the many faces I've came across,
all the conversations, hopes, and dreams.
Sharing them together.
watching the countless sun rises, and sunsets.

Taking all the good with the bad.
Season after season.
Lost souls united, speaking as one mind.
But as the time passed,
another link of the chain was seemingly broken.

The trails intertwine, they connect.
So, shall the lost souls.
This park that surrounds the Terrace will remain.

One day!
One night!
One year!

We shall all be one again.
From this forgotten friend
I send a message of gladness, sadness, uncertainty,
but most of all Thanks!

I wrote this about a place that brought me peace& love. A place that healed my heart, and help free my soul. This a place that memory will play, until god rings a bell to come home.

I just wanted to share a little piece of my youth, and to think of old friends. I wanted share this with my new friends, and hope you all have a rewarding day! Thanks you all for stopping by, and do me a favor today! :) SMILE! :)

Peace&Love
Wes

Zoinks!

As usual I waited till last minute to get a costume, and they were picked over. I was going to be a drunk Scotsman, after all I am part Scottish. I chose not be that in case of cold weather, and I didn't want a draft up the ole kilt. I thought about being a Spartan cheerleader, but I preferred other Will Ferrell skits. I passed on the Officer Jim Dangle from "Reno 911", for the shorts would be inappropriate for the youngsters. I saw so many funny costumes, but had to dress age appropriate.

After all the several family members would be there, and all the kiddies. I chose "Shaggy" from "Scooby Doo", and my wife was "Daphne". Malayna was a puppy, because right now she is puppy obsessed. Almost every animal is a puppy, and a short time back we would go through a whole list of animals. MJ would name each one, and do their sounds. She was stuck on "Puppy", and would pant like a dog. I tried to find a little "Scooby" or "Scrappy" but could not find one in time for my Dads party today.

The morning started off normal, as normal can be right now! We got up and got her snacks, which is really breakfast. Then her juice, and let her watch her shows. Mom had to get up and go to the Doctors office today, and get some test done. After she was done we would go over to the campgrounds, and go to the costume judging. Mom was running late, so I got her in her costume, and made it over with seconds to spare.

They called for our age group, and I took MJ by her hand, and she carried the sign that read "Beware of Guard puppy". She did so well, and held on to the sign as the judges passed us by. People in the crowd commented on how cute she was, and asked if we could stop for pictures, so we did. I was the only adult dressed up during the day, that was until Lisa showed up. As the judges walked by I couldn't help but think of "Best In Show", I laughed about the film in my head. I noticed MJ was looking at the kids, and smiled and laughed at most of them. Once I ever get around to figuring out all this computer stuff, I will post pictures of us.

Back to the contest, they named off the top three costumes, and she did not get called. Oh well, I didn't think any thing about it. Then the second place girl passed all the kids and stuck her tongue out at all the kids and said "I got second place, Ha Ha!" It truly didn't bother me, but part of me felt for the other kids. When I made my way back to the family, my niece mentioned what the little girl did, and I responded by saying "That it did not matter, that it is about having fun", which we did!

An odd thing happened to me, and it made me laugh! I was standing next to my Step Mother Kay, and she tapped me on the back. So, I turned around and this woman was standing behind me with her hand out. Naturally I shook her hand, and she was complimenting my costume, She was telling me how she had a crush on "Shaggy" growing up, and dated guys who resembled him. I'm standing there with Kay, and she's by her kids, and a man, and she says "I just want to say that you Really look like him." Zoinks, that was awkward!

It shocked me for two reasons, I didn't expect it. The other reason who had the hots for "Shaggy", I mean it's him, and not to forget it's a cartoon!

Thank goodness for the family coming to my rescue, and by the way I have always had a goatee, and wore green shirts. My dad used to kid with me about the resemblance, but he wasn't serious. I just wished I didn't shave my real one a few days ago, I had to keep placing it on my chin. I felt like a cast member on SNL, when the fake mustache would fall or tilt. Those were some of my favorite parts of the show.

When it was about time for the hay rack rides, and the trick er treating Lisa pulls up! (Woo Ho)
Here comes "Daphne, and now I can show the world that "Shaggy and "Daphne" could be a couple, that it wasn't always about "Fred"! MJ was really happy to see her, and I was relieved too! Now I could start video taping some more for my dad, he wasn't able to make it. The Doctors said he couldn't leave the hospital until he could keep food down, and the chemo treatments were treating him kinder!

We got our candy, I mean Mj's Candy! Ha ha
We opted to walk the roads with the stroller, rather than be crammed on the hay rack rides. All went well, and we made it back to the family. Then my Grandparents showed up ,and we visited with them. My Grandfather mentioned that he just saw my father, and that he was doing better.
So, I called him and asked him if we went to Springfield to grab some food, if he would like us to stop. "Would I want you guys to stop by, I've been waiting!"

We were off in the "Mystery Machine" to grab some "Scooby Snacks" and see Pa Pa! After we loaded up her stroller, and got all the things that MJ needed, we made our way to the doors. People already were smiling and staring, and so I put on a show. I took those really long steps that Shaggy takes, and responded with "Zoinks"! A few kids even yelled "Hi Shaggy" and the old men looked at Lisa's Daphne outfit, with her 70's boots. Doctors, Nurses, patients, and visitors enjoyed us being all dressed up.

I always try to make it humorous for all when I go to the hospital, and most importantly my father! The bonus is that the other cancer patients get a kick out of it too. I just don't like hospitals, but I know that there are angels who roam those halls. I praise any one who works in a hospital, even if it is the janitor! I used to be one in a Nursing home, and it was a learning experience!

We made it to the room , and my sister was there. She beat us there, we did stop for snacks. My dad was pleased that we were having a good day, and that we stopped by. The smiles on his face were heartwarming, and the joy in his tone was wonderful. I finally sit down, and he laughed! He stated "That goat under chin, you usually have one, that one his so goofy!" He laughed all through that broken sentence. I almost didn't wear it in, but thought he could enjoy it.

I could dress up every day of the year, if society wouldn't lock me up! It is amazing how costumes, and impressions can brighten up peoples days.

My father felt well enough to walk to the waiting room, and he even picked Malayna up, to show her to his new found friends. I have made friends with many people on the cancer floor, and just about every floor for that matter. We sat in the waiting room, and laughed, talked, and reminisced. Several doctors and nurses stop by to give candy to MJ, and it gave my dad the chance to brag about his little puppy, and his family! After a little while we said good bye, and made it back to the house to change out of our costumes. It had turned colder, so we wanted to be dressed warmer for the Chili cookout.

Arriving back at the campgrounds, we sat by Kay, and talked about what movies we thought were scariest. Watched the Adult costume contest, and ate chili. Played with kids, until somebody came through the crowd with a fake chainsaw, and mask! MJ did not like it ,so I pulled her off to the side. We went over to the playground, and played with Cassie our niece. She was scared too, and I told her don't repeat what I'm about to say to anyone "If that guy tries to scare you or MJ again, I will put that chainsaw somewhere, and it just might hurt!" I got a laugh out of her, and told her was fake, that there was no blade on it. Once again all was peaceful, so we gathered our things, and went over to the bonfire.

It was the biggest bonfire I have ever seen, it had to be at least 20 to 25 feet tall. It was in a safe location, and so were we! Me personally I would never have one that big, and I felt even with volunteer Fire Fighters there, it was too big. Ask me if I thought it was awesome, and I will tell it was a site to see! The kid was getting irritable, and we had been gone all day, we started to get ready to go home. Plus, SNL was on in thirty minutes, and we still had to say goodbye.

We said our goodbye's, and followed each other home. We made it with seven minutes to spare, and the opening was funny! I just don't like the fact that undecided, and uninformed people will vote just because of the show tonight! It is all fun and games, until we have four more years like we have had the last seven! I love elections, but don't understand how anybody can vote for the candidate that entertains them, and not the one who would be best for the world. Enough about politics and a confused nation.

I can say that despite my father not being able to show for his own party, and the stresses in my own life, I had Fun. My family had fun today, and we were able to make strangers feel good. I was able to relax when I got home, and lay with my family until they passed out. Almost finished my S. Brown book, and ate some homemade brownies and chocolate chip cookies.

Before I go, I would like any one who reads this to answer three questions for me please.

What are some of the movies that Scared you?
What is your favorite costume of all time?
What will you be this year?

Thank you all for stopping by my place, and I wish you all a Groovy day!

Best Wishes,
"Shaggy"

I Paint A Picture With Broken Crayons

I wish to write about what is on my mind , but can't right now. So, I write about some instances where I encountered racism first hand. I should say bigotry toward mankind, and myself. When I was under two years old, I witnessed some neighbors yelling the N word. They were yelling at our neighbors to our left. I know people say you can't remember things that young , but I do! It is really hard to block out hate like that. I was playing with my brother outside in front of the green house, when a fight erupted. My father told us to go inside, and to go get a snack. I know you thinking is there more to this story, but at my age just that little bit was enough for me to be introduced to racism.

After all, Pekin, Illinois high school mascot used to be the "Pekin Chinks" I think until the late 60's. I won't judge the town today, but in recent years past, people who were different didn't stick around long enough to see the truth. I can recall another time when we got rained out from detasselling, and we sat at the park until our rides showed up. This nice car comes barreling through the parking lot, throwing gravel all over cars. We didn't think anything about it, and kept playing cards. About ten minutes later, a Police officer comes over to talk to my brother Don, Scott, and me.

I forgot to mention Scott was from Guam, and looked different! Any ways, the Cop says "You boys been throwing rocks at cars?"

We respond "No Sir"

"That ain't what I heard, I heard a gentleman saw you throw rocks at his car" My brother looks at me with his don't say a word face. Then the cop yells to Scott "Get up boy! Your coming to the station with me!" That was all I could take so I said "Look I know the law and we didn't do anything, and you can't do a thing to us!" My brother gave me a you should of shut up face.


The next thing you know "He's going to haul us all to the station". I couldn't resist the urge to make the point again, and to state that he was being a racist! He told me if I said another word, he'd put the cuffs on me, and I said a few more words. To make this long story short, I was handcuffed, I have always had trouble with racist people. Even if they wore a badge, it made no difference who you were. We ended up in the cell for a few hours, and was released without charges. My Older brother gave the face that said you should have listened to me. Maybe so, but I would do it the same way all over again!


Years later, when I was about 17 yrs. old, I was working on a job. We were doing all the work on top of grain bins, I was a millwright. It had rained one day, so we decided to go get an early lunch. We were in this tiny town I will call "Somewhere, Illinois" and we walk in this little restaurant. I sit down with the crew, and take my coat and hat off. Suddenly the whole place stopped eating, and the workers stopped working. They were staring at our table, they were staring at me. I didn't think anything about my long hair passed my waist, and waited for our table to be served.

Less than a minute later, a bunch of "Deliverance" looking men came over to me and surrounded me. I was working with my brother Don, who was about to get up from the table, and so was the rest of the crew. When Mike our boss said "Just sit down boy's, we are here to get some food!

When one of the men looked at me, and got in my face and said "Look at the faggot, an his pretty faggot hair!" I start to feel anger rising inside me, and I looked at my brother, and he's giving me the let's kick there ass face.

When a couple police officers walk in, and ask the owner if there is a problem? The owner shouts"NO, ain't no problem here, these boys were just leaving!" So, my boss Mike tells us all to get in the truck, and we went several miles away to eat lunch that day. This was in the late Nineties when this occurred. All I kept thinking was about that seen in "Easy Rider", and wanted to get the hell out of that town. I wished I could tell you the name, so you could avoid it, but I blocked it out.

I will be honest there are too many to mention, and will recall them some other time. I would like to bring up one last incident. I was working a Door to Door job selling floor cleaner, and we went up and down this country. It is a really long story, so I will get to the nitty gritty here.

Wait a minute, I can't forget to mention a little of the night before. We were staying in a Hotel near London, Ohio, and I was talking to my mom. I was using a phone card, and venting some complaints about the job. I was telling her it felt like they were brainwashing me , and wouldn't let us leave our group. Not even to eat a different joint. The card quit on the part about letting us leave.....

It was couple days later, and I'm eating potato soup, while hang out with a friend. After I was done eating, I made my way to the Hotel, when I noticed several cops there. One of my friends comes my way and says "Wes, they are looking for you! I don't know what they want, but they checked every room. Even the bosses suite, and he is mad!" My friend kept walking by me, when two cops come up to me, and say "Is your name Wes?" I shook my head yes, and asked what the problem was?

They filled me in on all the details, apparently my mom called my Uncle Paul telling him I was kidnapped, and held captive by a cult. They had been searching the whole state for me the last couple days. I guess I should have got another phone card! Ha Ha

Now back to the story I'm in Akron, Ohio, where I was waiting at the bus station. The company I was working for failed to tell me about the eight hour wait. It wouldn't have been as bad if I wasn't the only white guy there. I had three suit cases, and my stereo to carry around, I'm not saying I was worried about a theft, but mentioning for the sheer pain in the butt! I would have to say I sat there reading a book for a couple hours, and I noticed a kid messing with the video games. It had to of went on for about an hour, so I went over and put a couple bucks in change on the machine. I said "Hear you go kid, play a couple games to pass the time." The kid replied "Thank you"

I didn't think much about it, and tried to make my way back to my seat. That's when all hell broke loose! I'd say about twenty people got up, and started swinging and screaming! "How dare you give money to my kid, and what makes you think" When an elderly man pulls me out the door, and says "What were you thinking, and why did you do a stupid thing like that? You should know better than to do that!"

Meanwhile a couple good Samaritan's are holding people back. The man says "You'd best stay out here for a while , and let it settle down! I will watch your stuff." I had a some time to think about what had just happened. I couldn't believe that people that I have been standing up for my whole life, treated me like that. I was appalled that black people were just as racist as the white people who harassed my black friends. They were just as racist as the police who picked on me and my friends.

Ask me if I regret it, and will say no I don't! It showed me that all people are racist, but with every color there are other's like me. Believe me when I say there are too many stories to tell, and that I can't accept ignorance, and bigotry. It pains my heart and soul that RACISM is alive and well, in this world! That people won't vote for someone because of their color, or their sex. The poetic part to this election, is that we will have Black President, or a Woman for Vice President.

If only Erin Brockovich or Caroline Kennedy were running on a ticket. If only Bill Cosby or Danny Glover were a choice.

We have to look at it like this, we will be done with the Bush years, and the people who advised him on his mistakes.

I just pray that we get someone who actually cares about the environment, humanity, and our human rights!

Peace&Love to All

Wes